now.

In a conversation last week, a few of my peeps talked about belief in reincarnation, or at least stuff after death.

Lightbulb! I have no solid belief like that. I need to be here now, and have the most awesome possible this life. That’s all I know about.

I had a dude read tarot for me over the weekend. The question in my head was romance, but the cards were all “you just achieved a bunch of goals; surprise! here are some new ones, except they’re super-mysterious and on the other side of some veil”. I felt good. That was validating. This week’s self-assigned homework is the question I asked last week… what do I do with this?

I’m collecting coaching resources and powerful questions. And just, you know. Absorbing. I have no idea if this is for my life or my future coaching business, but I will share some.

Today: Manzanita Village – coaching and neurolinguistic programming united with buddhist practice.

what’s next?

I haven’t written my list of things I won’t do without. I’m not sure what goes on that list.

There is music playing outside that sounds like a mix of gansta rap and Jethro Tull ca 1977. What a mashup! There are thoughts in my head about work. I tried on a different form of coaching last week, and it fit perfectly some ways but horribly in others: I may be a vehicle for insight, but insight is uncomfortable and sometimes sucky. For others and for me. I had a couple of unsettling experiences that took me from ‘hey, this is a thing I could do’ to ‘oh, $DEITY, I can’t even be near this feeling’.

And bizarrely enough, everyone I know is not calling me to ask me to coach them. Clearly this will be a failure!

That is more or less a voice of ridiculousness. I know that. I’m creating doubt for myself.

The lesson? I expect a good path to come without resistance, though every fantastic destination I’ve ever reached came with tons of discomfort, even kicking and screaming. So what will I do about it?

putting the little a in agenda

I came home from Hawai’i this week feeling a need to step more lightly on the earth. And. I want to balance on a line between this home-owning, career-having “grownup” life I live and the ability to pick up and wheel freely.

These two ideas seem pretty closely tied to me. If I live on less, I have more to fall back on in the future. If I spend less energy acquiring and disposing of stuff, I have both more energy for new experiences and less stuff to worry about taking along.

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